Fair warning: a little intense and deepy-deep for your Friday. But this is my wish for someone I love deeply…
You coddle your pain like a newborn. You nurture him. You breathe him in.
You hold him with fullness.
Every day you gather evidence and once you have enough to make the case, you sit back. Somewhere, somehow, satisfied.
Proof of what you have long suspected. Finally.
Rageful your case is made, you begin to make promises. You outlaw people.
When all you want is to be included. To matter. To be loved.
Your actions serving only to push them all further away.
Until they leave. And you are left. All alone.
Whereupon the pain cries softly to you – more insistent now, arms outstretched.
You pick him up and swaddle him. Soothe him. Grateful he is the one thing that has never left you…you are once more safe and comforted in his warm spell.
I have never asked you for anything.
But I will ask you this.
Please love something more than your own pain.
Anyone. Anything.
Please.
Love something more.